Barb was diagnosed with small cell lung cancer stage 4 two weeks after i received my diagnosis of lymphoma. Even though she knew that one day the cancer would take her life, she refused to stop living. Quite the opposite in fact. She quit her job and got onto a course of chemo that "managed" her cancer, "kept it at bay" you might say. for that first year while i was so sick from the chemo that would save my life, she was on vacation. Going places, seeing people, being a living testimony to how living was to be done.
One day over coffee i told her that i envied her, not the fact that indeed we both knew she wasnt going to be here with us for a long time but that the time she was here she was taking full advantage of her time. she smiled and told me to work on that.
Barb was a great person, and i know that today she stands in the pure light of the Lord, and though she will be missed, I am not morning her death only my own loss. the fact that i only knew her for 3 short years. not nearly long enough to learn everything i could from her. But i have to trust that i can practice what i did learn.
Not to take life so seriously, after all none of us get out of it alive.
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