Friends

I dont think you can go though an experience like cancer and come out the other side as the same person. You can't go through this and come out the same person. and should you?

I had misconceptions about friendships and family relationships. I have learned that not all family relationships are the same even in the same family.

My personal immediate family is very tight knit.

My best friend is Steve, My second best friend is Michelle. Yes they are my family. But they are also my friends. Other family members are also my friends. I love to spend time with them. shopping, phone calls, games. you name it I can normally have them around.

This works for me. I do have friends outside of my family but they don't have that same "feel". They get wrapped up in their lives and time passes.

But my family is always there. Thus they are my friends.

I have met some people that their friend circle and their family circle don't intertwine, and I suppose that works for them and that is ok as well. I just didnt realize that it was this way for some people.

I suppose this time (time after cancer & before life restarts) I will be using to find myself again, who I have become, I think I like myself better this way but I still need to get to know this new me. What I stand for now and what I have left behind. What I am going to change and what will remain the same.

I think as far as my friends go those that have been left behind with my old life, will probably stay there. My family, I will probably continue to count among my friends. My new friends I may or may not draw them into my "family" circle. I have done that before at times I have been greatly disappointed in the result. Other times I have been greatly rewarded. Time will only tell on that.